why am i doing this to myself?
why do i torment myself, why am i waiting, hoping for something that will probably never happen, never work out.

why am i the way i am?



side note:

lack of interest in everyone?
lack of interest in myself? or just busy with school and tired.
i'll go with the latter, but come on really? please make an effort..i've seen bits of effort here and there, but this week of all weeks show me something.